♥ That Scary Feeling
Friday, November 23, 2007
this is gnna be an odd post, compared to the others. well, my close friends are going to start to think im emo when they read this. but not yet Vee. oh well, today me n edy had this conversation about death. odd, i know. he told me about how he didnt understand death. like when his grandmums died he didnt cry. he didnt know what it meant. then i remembered when i first witnessed death.i dnt really remember who she was, all i know is that she was really important in the family. i didnt understand it at all. evrybody crying, the men praying. i was a child and it was so sad. then i went into this room, all the women were hooded. all of them crying and listening to the prayers. and on the bed was a body covered in cloth. being the curious child i was, i opened the covers and i saw a pale, frail face of the lady. she looked peaceful but it looked so sad to me n even more frightening. then without warning my mother picked me up and took me outside. she told me to stay put and behave myself and i obeyed. i felt odd, like it was all going to dissapear. i felt death. i'm not sure wether i cried or not. and i'm not sure wether it really happened, or wether it was only a dream or wether it's someone else's memory that i seem to remember as my own. but death is something i don't want to meet. nowadays, looking at my grandparents, i get this overwhelming feeling of fear to lose them. i jst cant imagine life without them. 'where did i go wrong,i lost a friend,somewhere along,the bitterness end,but i stayed up,with you all night,and i know,how to save a life'by; the frayau' revouir amour
