ahh yes halloween. but this year, my halloween was special. because i got to go to the AAR concert losers ! it was awesome ! a lot of waiting though but still fun. i hung out with Choo and all again. walked around with Vee. we thought of going into the V.I.P section but i changed my mind and we had a better time just jumping around in the crowd.

people dressed up and painted their faces. it was just a lot of fun in all. i hung out with Lee too. aww, i missed the bugger. i had fun with him. now i find so much pleasure in ejek-ing him. i know, mean. boohoo cry.

tired, so imma fuck off now. nights faggots !

exactly what i'll be doing after my exams. hell to the fuck yeah !

i dream of the weirdest things ! dear god, last night was no different. i had the longest dream ever. it was real long. i only remember a pinch of it.

i meet a boy through a friend of ours who owns a restaurant. i don't remember his character but the weird thing is i call him Sid Vicious throughout the whole dream. he obviously has his own name but i only call him that.

he's emo, he wears leather. and we have the most emo love there is. we tear each other apart but we cant live without each other. someone help. does this sound familiar ?

"did it hurt ?"
"when i left you."

Yana gave my mum a hello kitty mouse on her birthday. how original right ? so right now, i'm typing on mak's laptop. and having the most disturbing thing just stare at me. it's so bright ! it changes colour too, as if that's what i need.

Asha crying ! bye !

so guess what ? i told mak what i wrote for my english paper. the concept at least. so se told me that i should write it into a script, so i guess i should start in a bit. this would be my third script idea. shhh ! no one tell my mother. so here goes,

i woke up this morning around 12 something. after a bit, i checked my phone and saw that none other than Jaz, my gay ass brother missed called me. i was like "ohhh sheeet". mesti dia nak kacau i. so i messaged him but only later that night did he call me back. so we talked abit. of course, the usual

"why you tak call i ?"
"you have college, nak i kacau ? you should call me."

ah, i missed him. the last time i saw him was at Safa where i suddenly saw him and of course merajuk since he didn't call OR message me. but of course, tak lama, so i gave him a hug and we went off into our respected groups.

he's got a new girl now, oh so sweet. *wipes tear out of eye*

this better not be another dose of drama. i mean, we've been "adik beradik" since i was 13. we have been through alot, okayy ! i don't have a picture of him. but don't worry. take it from me, he doesn't look THAT bad.

Jaz ! Lepak jom !

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pictures taken at cheer 09. Harith just forgot em.

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i'm outside of the house holding onto an umbrella. it started raining the night before, somewhere around the time i shouted in your face.


my umbrella is colourful among the many black ones. it wasn't even mine. i just took it without thinking. i was too busy thinking, as usual, to not realize you walking up to me. coming out of my daze, i see you and smile. and out of the corner of my eye, i could see them point at us and whisper.

you looked nervous when you said sorry. and truth be told, i was shocked you even cared. i'm sorry i shouted at you. that just hit a sore spot.

i remember the first night at the house. when we both got bored so we went for a walk. now that alley was scary. with the idea of stray dogs. you were so hyper ! and we just talked about everything we could think of.


my birthday party was even better. especially when you danced. and it was interesting when you came on time. i guess it's good being half european. :P

it definitely got complicated, but i'm glad you're still a good friend.


i saw the message when i was cleaning out my inbox. don't worry, i didn't fully wipe you out. too bad, we didn't take any pictures, at least i could put it up here. maybe when you come back here, we'll lepak. we can go to a club and dance. and i'll dance circles around you. joookes. :)

hopefully none of your girls will find this post offensive.

oh and i don't have a boyfriend lah. just lots of problems.

it's been weird lately. it doesn't rain in the day, just at night or in the morning and when it rains, it rains cats and dogs. but it's so calming to me. i could just drift away into my own little world, fucked up as it may be. the thunder sends shudders down my spine but i like it, it gives me a sense of living. and being afraid of thunder, to me, is just real weird. i mean, lightning, i get it. but thunder ?

i hung out at Vee's place just now for Diwali. which was so much fun. i hung out with Choo alot. seeing as i barely lepak with him nowadays. we just sat down, listening to music and he told me all his girl problems, as usual.

Lee has been pretty distant from me. and i feel bad. am i too mean to him or something ?

it's 4.30 in the morning and it hurts. something in me hurts. and i can't put my finger on it. i can't really figure this feeling out.


Khai, honey in my post is just a calling. even if it meant something.
Sha, i know right ? sayang gila.
White guy, i'm still just figuring out what to write.

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somebody get me this ? HAH ! just kidding, baby. it's probably too damn expensive and my parents are definitely going through enough. i just really want an electric guitar to practice on. acoustic is great. but i want something i can play around with. but isn't it just beautiful ? honey ! help ! god, i'm drooling.

eh white guy, i thought i was special. :P joookess

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he turns to me and looks me in the eye. "what do you want ?", i asked, irritated. that's not the first time he tried to search through my soul. still looking at me, he doesn't answer. irritated and not knowing what else to do, i turn to walk away. but just as i move away, he grabs my wrist. and pulls me in, hugging me. i hold onto his arms as he carries me around. slowly, he lets go. i turn around to him, holding onto his hand. he pulls me in and kisses my forehead. he looks at me and slowly whispers in my ear

i just finished studying accounts. not much difference it's going to make though. i just can't seem to get anything in my. tomorrow i'm going to give a go at economy and history. i hope on scoring for history. i like my history teacher. and this year seems to be more interesting.

form 4 is almost over. i mean, it's October already. two more months to go and then i'll have to remind myself that i'm form 5 and i have SPM. shit it.

my life is going to take me somewhere. and yes, being a teenager, i am afraid.

i plan on stuff that i hope to happen in the future. but i'm never really sure it's what i want let alone, what i'll get. so, this sucks. i hate it when my head just suddenly decides to make these ideas and thoughts pop up. and now, i'm rambling. ughhh

so here i am, sixteen and way too mature for my age. ask my family members.

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my dad is being a stubborn prick and now i can't go out cause, why ? i have to study. unfair how he doesn't see me studying so it's embedded in his head that i don't. and the fact that Kak Leya and Kak Nani didn't go, so he lost all hope in us. so now i have to work extra hard so my dad would "invest" in my studies. so mak says.

but i wanted to go to charm ! i miss cheer, i didn't go last week cause i was in Melbourne. and now, i can't go for no bloody reason. i can only go out for tuition and school and oh ! family stuff. that's bullshit, i can't go out to study but i can go out anytime with the family and studying wouldn't be much kan ?

whatever, i still have my guitar and my laptop. thank god.

ohh yeah, white person. what do you want me to write about you ?

eh, white guy, jom ah. i'll dance circles around you.

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man, i wanna dance so badly. i don't care where or with who. i just wanna dance with pumping music in my ears. i'll let the rhythm take me away. just take me away.

there's just so much going on now. and i have no idea what i'm going to do but i know dancing will help me just let go.

i was talking to Ron about it the other day and it shocked him when i said i could dance to screamo and metal. i mean, there's a dance rhythm in everything. and it's not that hard to find if you look for it.

lately, i've just been dancing about in my room. but still doesn't feel the same. maybe i should just call some friends over for a dance party. not that much of my friends dance anyway. oh well, i can try.

i miss cheer. so i'm going this wednesday. i can actually do a heelstretch now. awesome-ness !

but i just wanna dance ! someone, move with me ?

When the king pairs with the queen, heads turn. This couple can be a royal match and generate a grand passion on a grand scale. Both are romantic, colorful, exuberant about life, and highly sexed. The main question is: Who's going to be in charge? It's difficult for one Leo to make room for another ego as large as its own, but that's exactly what's needed here. Each not only wants to sit on the throne, each wants to be the power behind it as well.

somebody else hates me *gasps*

alert the fucking media ! kiss my arse dude. you're not the first or the last, so you're still not very special. boohoo dude ! my family and i are happy whether you like it or not, we don't give a flying rat's ass. and oh ! it's extremely lame when you write it on my BLOG CHATBOX.

it's real good. in my opinion. i didn't read the book, so i'm not that sure of it. it's really really sweet. about the love for a person you'll lose. i can't imagine losing any if my sister so this was close to heart. and the love story is soooo cute ! ugghh.

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