Alex from All Time Low with Travis from We The Kings
♥ Miserable At Best
Friday, February 27, 2009
i've been waiting so long since the first time i heard this song for the video. and now it's here !
Katie, don't cry, I know You're trying your hardest And the hardest part is letting go Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so
Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight I know he's there You're probably hanging out and making eyes while across the room, he stares I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say Or her to second guess But I guess That I can live without you but Without you I'll be miserable at best You're all that I hoped I'd find In every single way And everything I would give Is everything you couldn't take Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away And the hardest part of living Is just taking breaths to stay
'Cause I know I'm good for something I just haven't found it yet But I need it So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight I know he's there You're probably hanging out and making eyes while across the room, he stares I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor And ask my girl to dance, she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say Or her to second guess But I guess That I can live without you but Without you I'll be miserable at best
And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
It's been three whole days since I've had sleep
Because I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly
♥ Men or Boys ?
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
why are men and/or boys so wrong in the head. they fuck up then blame women for being that way. well hell, what's the point then ? lying idiots. i think they were born to not be able to feel any bit of pain. they cheat, they lie and they expect us to feel sorry for them.
we women have to deal with so much more. and they say, they have it hard. that's just shit. they have no idea the pain and heartache we go through. when men do something is COOL but when a women does it, she's WRONG.
the hypocrites that run this country should take a look in the mirror. they should take a good long look into the fucking mirror they will crack. they should go back to school or at least do something progressive.
he flirts and it's NORMAL, she flirts and she's being CHEAP. he ignores her because he's TROUBLED, she CAN'T ignore him when she's troubled. he broke her heart and it's OKAY. she breaks his and it's THE END OF THE WORLD.
men are full of it. they're great friends and that's it. i haven't seen a good husband and/or father for a while now. don't get me wrong, i'm not turning lesbian or anything.
just pointing out the fact that men are weak, brainless, hypocritical, cowardice jackasses.
♥ Girls Do What They Want
She's 18 and a beauty queen
She's figured out all the boys like me
Head to toe you know she's dressed to kill (dressed to kill)
And she could the way she's looking at me
It's her face and those eyes, I can't escape 'em
It's that mouth and those lies, try not to taste 'em
Because the boys are feeling jealous
And it just doesn't make any sense
Go on and tell 'em why the girls are into fellas
That toss 'em to the side in the end
And you know that all the
The boys are falling in love
With the girls who don't know what's up
I think we've all had enough of this now
These kids are talking 'bout love
We think we've all had enough
We've had enough of this now
Girls do what they want
Boys do what they can
Girls do what they want
Boys do what they can
♥ Sweets for My Sweets
Boy, wipe that drool off your face !
♥ Why ?
Monday, February 23, 2009
it is none of your business for god's sake ! it never was ! leave me alone ! take away all my other friends, why don't you ! i don't need this ! what made you do it ?! that's not an excuse ! you don't make any sense ! your so full of it ! mind your own business ! i am so tired !
coward, next time just tell it to my face. tell me what i should expect. jesus, i didn't need the aftershock jackass. he was my FRIEND. but you will never understand that right ? cause none of you shitheads will take the time to know me before invading my privacy.
for fuck's sake la. just leave me alone. don't i have a right to my own privacy ?
♥ Memories :)
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Dee slept over my house again last night. it was fun. we watched REC but we got so tired, halfway through, the tv was watching us. so we went back into my room. we washed up then lied down. instead of falling right to sleep, we ended up talking about stuff. we talked about one thing particularly longer than the rest.
"Listen to this", i said with a smile. he took my phone from my hand and put it to his ear. he closed his eyes and let himself wander into sleep. bored, i took his phone and looked for a game. finding one rather interesting, i turned around and started playing gleefully. suddenly, his body jolted, and he woke up. he looked at me then started stroking my hair. then he withdrew his hand and laid down, not sure of what just happened, i ignored it. "What you doing ?", he asked. "Playing a game on your phone la.", i replied. he gave out a chuckle under his breath and stroked the back of my right hand. then he pulled back, then fell asleep. confused, i put his phone down and closed my eyes. letting the music take me away.
"i got into the school !"
"Hey, i hear the girls there are really hot and pretty."
"Ya, but none of them will have a heart like yours :)"
i think that's how it went.
"Leave me alone la !", i shouted at the top of my lungs before switching off my phone. "You don't have to layan him.", he says shyly. "Yes, i do.", i protest. "You wouldn't understand.", i exclaimed. "I don't have to. You know, i have friends who delete the number.", he fights. "So ? I just have to layan him la.", i say with a sigh. i thought that was the end of it until he suddenly shouted, "No, no you don't !". that definitely caught me by surprise.
i told Dee those same situations and all she could say was "WHOA". HAHA that's my Dee. she told me stories about herself too. we shared a lot of memories. and we both were trying to figure everything out. lying in my bed, i felt more confused than ever before.
Leysha : I just wish somebody would have said something.
Deedee : We said it, but we didn't show it.
Leysha : I wish i did that, then it would be so much easier.
Deedee : As in, you would be a happy couple ?
Leysha : As in, we would have come to the terms, to stay just friends.
Deedee : Ohh.
Leysha : Yeap. I wished somebody would have said something.
Deedee : Yeah, but at least you showed it. And actions speak louder than words.
Leysha : ...i guess...
just a way of forgetting. i am SO over it. twas Vee's idea.
♥ Give It a Break !
Friday, February 20, 2009
"yes!!!!!!!im happy..no im not..im happy..no im not..yes..pei wen is so blonde larshe made her own medal..maybe she cudnt wait to win the other award.such as...the most unlucky bitch.the most fuck up teeth bitch. "
"fine.i feel bad talking about u like that.(pw)coz i am not stable.im sorry.the thing is have u ever been involve in a relationship?have u ever fall in love?have u ever celebrate valentine's day with ur boyfriend?i have to admit.i still love leysha.so u really got me.when u ask her out to go ou.on valentine's day.u asked her in front of me.with a very teasing tone.and talk cock about meeting dicks there and free hugs shit.that really got me in the gut. "
"Haha! This is seriously super entertaining. I didn't expect this. XD But still, it's fun and spices up my life and yes, i do have one. I thought only girls or blondes like me would do the reply post on blog thingy. So what if i'm blonde? or a bitch to you? So what if i've never been into a relationship? or been seriously in love? But a person with common sense knows how to think rationaly. So what if i've never spent Valentines with my boyfriend? I don't believe in Valentines, it's just this event started by St. Valentines. It's for commercial reasons to help businessman to earn money. That's what i think. IF i'm in a relationship with my loved one, "Everyday will be Valentines" quotes Pris. and so what if i HAD fcked up teeth, SO WHAT nothing matters on the outside, The more important is what's on the inside, haven't heard of that? Urgh. Seriously, you are nobody to me. Never was and never will. At least i'm not an insecuresuicidalretardedimmaturesmokingemotionaldramaticthinkhislifeistheworstthingever BOYperiod"
"Eddy got pissed at Jojo for inviting Leysha out for a girls' outing on Valentine's Day.Like omg la, it's not her fault. She is Leysha's friend and she has the right to invite Leysha to wherever and whenever she wants. Leysha made her choice, and she chose to go out with her girls first.That's my POV.Eddy bitchblogged about Jojo; blamed her, insulted her and gave her the Bitch Award. Jojo did a very proud reply to it. Then suddenly, Eddy put up this really emo post that he's sorry and all. Read Jojo's blog to see her very funny and bitchy reply to it.Damn, bitchblogging is so funny and fascinating to watch.
Jojo says: haha i did a bitchy blonde reply post
Jojo says: he think im a blonde bitch right, so im gonna give him a blonde bitch
Babydoll™ says: LOL
Babydoll™ says: BITCHBLOGGING IS SO FUNNY XD
Jojo says: I KNOW
Babydoll™ says: LOL
*just finished reading her bitchy blonde post*
Babydoll™ says: BITCHY GILER WEII
Babydoll™ says: XD
Jojo says: i know
Jojo says: i didnt know it was in me
Jojo says: gasp
Jojo says: D:
Babydoll™ says: LOLOLOL"
and so it's my turn, since they didn't really include ME. i think it's ironic this is happening, since Pei Wen and Dee were drooling over Eddy the first day they saw him. they were all over him, literally. they used to be so close. what the fuck happened ? ohh wells. i don't get it, honestly.
she didn't have to burn him that badly.
he didn't have to call her a bitch.
she didn't have to take everything so seriously.
she didn't have to judge a book by it's cover.
they didn't have to post it on their blogs.
they didn't have to take it to the next level.
so now i'm taking it to the next level.
she's still my best friend. he's a jackass, but he's still the one i ever really "loved". so what's going on ? will nothing ever work out for me ? even i tak sampai hati to hurt someone when it comes to loved ones. sure, i make jokes, not suicides. isn't Eddy my problem ? where's the support ? i can't take it la. rehat is bullshit. the boys apologised and thats enough for me. i did miss em. wow, i'm so tired.
they should forget it.
they should get a grip.
they should leave each other alone.
they should be supportive.
they should GROW UP.
The 'Loser'The 'Bitch'The 'Sidekick'
Thursday, February 19, 2009
This movie is absolutely amazing ! i mean, i liked it.
It's about a 14 year old girl who runs away from her abusive father with her housekeeper.
They're taken in by three women who happen to run a honey farm.
and the best part is ! Peyton of One Tree Hill plays the girls deceased mother WUU !
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
went horse-riding again today. something bloody amazing happened. and i'm still alive !
OH YEAH !
Monday, February 16, 2009
went to my first class of BM tuition at Perfection today. Eshwaran IS real funny ohh. he kept saying rogol this and rogol that. fucking hilarious. i was so jakun, Vee had to make me go into class. they were a hell lot of people weyy. but yeah, it was fun. after tuition, Vee's dad picked us up and brought us to Safa. we hung out for a while then Vee left. i stayed behind because i THOUGHT the boys would be "fun".
but they were acting like such arseholes. they kept smoking one cigarette after another. Choo was shouting like a whore. Ariff was being his typical attention-seeking self. Eddy was making his usual jokes and being his jealous self. Harith was being a faggot for pretending not to smoke. i felt like smacking each and every face there. it was fucking stupid.
they kept acting like they were so much older. what shitheads. i don't get what's so hard in their lives that they have to smoke. retards ! they think they're adults. but the way they think, they might as well still be in diapers for fuck's sake.
i got so frustrated, i just got up and left. i walked home. Eddy tried consoling me but i told him to go fly kites. and he finally left. thank god ! i can't stand looking at their faces. if they irritate me tomorrow, i'll castrate them.
p.s i'm wearing a mini-skirt to the next class XD
Sunday, February 15, 2009
i cant seem to understand what's the problem now. and again. we were texting then suddenly u got mad?? hurm.. bcoz i ajak that chick kuar isit? haha u can spend like 6 hours with him. lepak in his room. pakai his shirt. pakai his boxers.. wow..and i didnt say shit.
if u really wanna move on. why do u still care?
i don't care anymore. she tried to kiss you jackass. he didn't. and you called her your girl, faggot. i spent 6 hours with not only him, but with 3 or 4 other guys. 6 hours ? so what ? what about a whole night ? oh well, too bad i read your post a little too late, if not i would have kicked you in the face for trying to blame it on me, LOSER.
♥ HAHA !
i just felt so happily single today. HEEHEE ! especially after i realised the amount of men staring at me on V day. Pei Wen, Vee and i totally rocked socks !
So, so what ?
I'm still a rockstar !
I've got my rock moves !
And i don't need YOU !
And guess what ?
I'm having more fun !
And now that we're done,
I'm gonna show you !
Now you'll never see
What you've done to me
You can take back your memories
They're no good to me
And here's all your lies
You can't look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well
And truth be told,
I miss you,
And truth be told,
I'm lying !
she's my cousin, Kak Eena's baby girl.
♥ OHH !
me and my girls made cupcakes to raise funds for the cheerleading team. we SOLD OUT all 256 cupcakes in two days. it was real awesome !
♥ Valentine's Day
i woke up around 12. hung around the house a bit then left for Pei Wen's house, walking ! haha but her house isn't even that far when you come to think of it, just walking straight. when i got there, Vee was already there. we took a cab to One U and hung out. we ate, hung out, took pictures. it was real fun. i saw quite a lot of people i knew which was fun.
"but i'll be okay, if thats what you want me to say"
"it's called break-up, cause you broke me"
this was the first Valentine's i spent single. in a way it was real exciting and so much fun. i can never get bored with my girls. but in a another, i realised it was kind of lonely. i saw all the couples holding hands and wearing matching outfits. some looked happy, others looked bored. i knew what was coming for them from the moment i saw them.
i did miss him a lil. how he'd hug me from behind and kiss my cheek playfully. last Valentine's he gave me a puppy doll. it was the first thing i picked up when i went into lovely lace and he realised. that was sweet.
but i have to admit, i am happier now, without the commitment. happier than i ever will be, i guess.
♥ Must Posts
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Nothing much happened. except until masa rehat :). the boys were playing tag saying "you have AIDS !" while the girls were standing in a line smacking each others titties saying "now YOU have AIDS !". then later Shasha, Ariff and Akiff sat on the stairs. then Vee suddenly poited at them
Vee : eh, look, Fat, Fat, FAT. *me and Peiwen thinks* Me : ohhh ! Peiwen : HAHAHAHA ! Me : BUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA !
then after a while, we locked them in with the pejabat grill and i remembered the movie, Quarantine
Me : Sha ! get out of there ! *Vee stares* Me : they'll like rape you then eat you...and then rape you again ! Peiwen : how can they rape her after they eat her ? Vee : BUAHAHA ! Me : it's the Ikhwans, they have their ways. *sneers* Vee : BUAHAHHAHA !
i love my girls la !
Wednesday This is Pei Wen, and we BAKED cupcakes today for tomorrow's sale! And, we're reallyreallyreallyreally tired now. We all wanna have a publicbath and go to sleep. BUT, Leysha just had to hog the freagging laptop. So this is me, pulling Leysha away and turning off the laptop.
Leysha: Nooooooo!!!! *screeches* *Wham! The room door slams* Pei Wen: Oooh, my room is pretty. :D I just painted ya know? *feels the wall* Leysha and Shasha: =________=
Leysha here. that was soooo gay la. tha bitch. she typed so fast, she made so many typos i was laughing my arse off. she even had to re-type Shasha's name 3 times ! HAHAHA ! Shasha's doesn't have a blog, so this is Shasha tumpang-ing.
Shasha: CEPAT LAAA!!! I'M HALF DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!! NEED TOO SLEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPP!!!
Leysha here. Shasha'll be just fine. EHEH ! VEEE if ur reading this, We're out to hunt for you tomorrow. GOOD LUCK! *evillaughechoes*
So yeah. one more thing !
i just met Su Yinn, the new girl in my school. -She's just like any other bu3 girls. They think that people who talk about sex are pervs- *in the background, we are so not okay!*
umm, yeah, she went to the toilet with Sophie. at the same time me and Vee were hanging out outside the bilik persalinan, on a bench.
Su Yinn: Eh! Why is it lock? *points at the bilik persalinan* Pei Wen: It's only locked after rehat. Leysha: Yeah. Cause people always fck around in there. Su Yinn: Huh? How to do it in there? Pei Wen: You know, can do it anywhere? Su Yinn: I KNOW! *screams out loud* Us: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
♥ Tagged by Nisha
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Whoever who gets tagged has to write 10 things about the person who tagged him/her
Tends to get of things easily and build a liking for something else real quick.
craves for icu cubes
Has the best of bestfriends anyone could ever have.
Spends most of her life dealing with anything that has to do with arts :)
When she wants something, she goes all the way to make it succeed.
Was born naturally talented, NEVER went to a place called 'artclass'.
Cannot stick to the same hairstyle or clothes for a certain period, I need change!
Loves crapping and blabbering with anyone , yeah..even strangers (:
is a pure bred idiot.
probably realised that i just copied most of the things on top. eheh !
The person who got tagged has to write 10 things about himself/herself.
doesn't hate anyone
loves hardcore/metal songs
eats like a pig
has the coolest group of close friends
loves her band brothers
loves to sing AND play her guitar
has THE coolest family members ever
is THE bitch, when she wants to be
has so much drama in her life, it's suffocating
At the end , you have to chose 10 people to tag and write the names out.
♥ More Pictures :)
♥ Pictures :)
more pictures later on. its 4.12am and i need to get to sleep. thanks.
so, last friday i followed Vee and her family to Batu Caves. it was AWESOME ! it was beyond awesome, it was be-awesome ! hehehe ! we went to the river then on the way to the caves, we saw a dude being tranced. then Vee, Nisha, Denise and Uncle asked for blessings from the dude. it was real cool. then we climbed, no, crawled up the 272 steps.
Leysha : Where's Uncle ? *looks around*
Denise : There he is. *points to the top of the stairs*
Everybody Else : WHOA !
it was fun, i had a lotta fun. i saw their deities and their gods. the temples are real cool and pretty. i definitely learned a whole lotta things.
Pictures in next post.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
these women are amazing. they have made it, wether in a band or by themselves. they are amazing entertainers.