♥ Letting Go
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
this is me, letting go.
see, my friend did this dumbass thing of going behind my back. oh well, i forgave her. but fuck, what she did really hurt. of course i've blogged about this before. but i guess you could say that i was being emo and depressed but now, i finally feel so much better. and thinking back, i was actually quite proud of myself. i was seriously hurt but i kept it together. i think it's fucking retarded how she tried to get people on her "side" konon. and i'm sitting there going "What sides ?!". but oh well, she loved him. she even admitted she was in love with him. not to me but him. maybe it was his fault for starting it. and "forgetting". i guess she was a lot prettier, smarter, cuter than i was. she maybe even had a way better personality.
you know, i wouldn't have mind. i wish she'd just tell it to my face and not let me find out that she was right there in front of me, not telling me. i thought that was a really cunt thing to do. but hey, she's a sweet girl. she keeps thinking we think she's a bitch but i just think she's a dumbass that made me waste my energy and time being sad.
i know a lot of my so called "friends" will be mad when they read this. but so what ? they already don't like me, why not hate me if you really enjoy wasting your time. i think even some of our mutual friends at school will stop talking to me cause they're closer to her and i'm such a bitch.
i even joked around that i'd punch her, but i'll just see how i feel then. cause she was the reason why i felt like such a turd. i know he started it but if she was a real friend, she'd do the right thing and tell me. or maybe even wait if she was that excited.
so, this is me letting go. because now, i really could not give a shit. if i ever see her again, i don't expect her to come up to me and say hi. but if she does, she better not expect me to be tolerant and talk to her. i'd just say hi and walk off because wasting my time on losers is no longer in my schedule.
told you i'm a bitch, Jeanny. and you've got nothing on me.
pffft !
