he dangles his life in front of my face. using it as bait or better yet, a threat. thats unfair. real unfair. too unfair.

i can't stand it, i don't want to see his face anymore. i just want him to leave me alone. i know there's a big chance of me being very lonely but i have my girls. and i happen to be at the age where my girls are enough. and love will just come and go.

i want to be happy, is that too much to ask ? with him, i often ask what was it i did wrong. but i'm getting rid of this heartache and i don't care how.

but i'm going to preserve what little happiness i have left, no matter what.