My name is Leysha, and my life is the biggest soap opera ever created.

i can't tell you much when it comes to family. only the fact that i haven't smiled since i got home. this happens quite frequently nowadays. maybe it's the fights. maybe it's the way i feel like i'm officially the biggest burden to my parents. i'm falling apart at the seams. and i have no way of telling them anything. they're going through enough already, no need to add to the pressure, right ?

apparently, i've changed alot, since i broke up with Eddy but got with Mat Saleh soon after. it's not like i sengaja. i broke up with Eddy because he disrespected my family and me. i can't possibly take that. when you do that i can honestly lose all feeling for the person. so i'm sorry. besides, we were fighting so much, it didn't even make sense. we just didn't agree on anything anymore. so i broke up with him.

Mat Saleh just appeared out of nowhere and caught me from my fall. he made me laugh and smile. we talked easily. it's not like i'm going to marry him. i'm 16, let me be. call me a whore or whatever lah. just do it to my face, cause it's real irritating with all this "anonymous" bullshit.

what's the problem anyways ? he's leaving. faham ? he's leaving ! dia nanti blah jugak kan ?! i don't love him. at least, i don't think so. with all my feelings being so 'all over the place'. mais je l'aime. thanks to him, i have learned how to use the google translater. can't you see ? he's leaving. i won't get to hug him anymore let alone kiss him.

but, even if i wasn't with him, i'd still stay far away from Eddy. i don't need another disease in my body. he's hurt me enough. he's got a new girl now. and i pray he treats her so much better than how he treated me. i don't regret anything. and i know i don't want to forget what we had. but i am over him.

please don't pretend you know me. don't give me any advice unless you know the whole story. i don't just take advice from random people. that's just not how i work. i do thank you for your concern though.

ne tombez pas amoureux de moi