i have no idea what to name this post.

and right now, i'm sitting in front of Yana's laptop, i know i know, it's Yana's. well i'm siting in front of Yana's laptop watching the oh so fabulous 'Sex and the City'. my hair's still wet from the shower, and i'm only in my underwear, writing on my blog. you have no idea how much like Carrie Bradshaw i feel. i've been on Facebook constantly checking up on Vee and Pei Wen's page. god, i miss my girls. i miss our girl talk, i have a couple of topics which are way overdue.

Mat Saleh makes me feel so good on the inside. i love just talking to him. even kissing feels exciting. but he's leaving soon. which in other words mean, i have absolutely no idea what i'm doing right now, but it sure as hell feels good. sometimes i have no idea what he sees in me. my friends like him. it's so cute when he doesn't understand anything in malay. only certain words. he'll randomly speak to me in French AND Spanish. i am only human. i can't believe i have a Mat Saleh boyfriend. i normally cringe at the sight of them.

Eddy gave back all the stuff i ever gave to him yesterday. not ALL lah but quite a number. including the RM300 Iron Maiden shoes. Kak Leya wants em' so if she fits em' she'll get it, if not, i'll just give it to fatso. i'll probably just sell the shirts off or something. at least i'll get a profit. but he did give something back that i didn't think he would. i hear he's real angry at me. for moving on so fast, for forgetting him so fast. and i mean, would you blame me ? i have gone through a little too much with that boy. hey Eddy, i'm sorry for moving on so fast, it was the only way i know you'd finally leave me alone. but i'm not sorry for anything else. besides, you have your "favourite girls" and your guys. who knows, you might just find the girl you'll love forever.

everybody knows that Yana is the most dramatic one in our family but they don't know that i have the most dramatic life. which is exactly why i should start writing a book.