i kinda knew what was coming when we were walking.

he said the sweetest things, the right things. and it felt nice. but what's going to happen ? he's not asking me to feel bad and he's not rushing me. i'm rushing me. i guess i just need time to digest everything he said. some of which was real personal. but it felt good. it felt safe. is this too fast for you ? i have no idea whether it's too fast for me. i can't think.

i wish i had my heart, then i could just tell him what i feel. but it's not here and i have no idea what i'm feeling or doing. he's letting me think of course. which is what i'm grateful for. i'm not going to think too much into it. i just want my heart back so i'll know what to do.

give me my heart, and no one gets hurt. hopefully