went to see Daddy last night at TGIF. he brought Shana along. but i felt really bad with everybody at the table being so bising and stuff. i missed him. he looks good, better at least. he's taking this hard. he's been avoiding all his friends which is why it shocked Yana and I when he agreed to have dinner with us. i really love him and i feel bad for not being able to help him through this. but what's a girl to do ?

i just think she's in another country and she's going to come back soon and ajak us out to tell us her latest story. i see her face in the newspapers and i have to remind myself she's gone. but she was an angel and an angel's place is by God's side. i miss her terribly but i can't possibly know what Daddy is feeling. 16 years with someone and they're suddenly gone.

i hope Daddy'll get better soon. i hear Mak and Abah aren't doing too good as well. but we all mourn in our own ways. we deny, we get angry and take it out on others, then we feel guilty for what we could or should have done, and finally, just maybe, we accept it and move on.