it's 5 in the morning. watching Sex and the City for the past 2 hours. and it has been fun. some parts can be real funny and i mean it.

but lately there's only been one thing on my mind. my future.

i'm only sixteen but i'm going through so much more than a sixteen should. hanging around with my friends, i've been pretty distant. my head just seems to wander every once in a while. i don't even realise i'm doing it until someone taps me on the leg and asks me if i'm alright.

with everything i'm going through. i have to constantly remind myself that i'm sixteen.


my heart feels so heavy. now that it's back, it's brought all kinds off feelings with it. and i have no idea how to deal with it.