that has officially happened to me twice, this year ! somebody help !

"i hate you so much, dude."
"i love you so much."

he is officially the third guy, this year, to tell me that. to tell it to my face. face to face in the midst of everything and the people around us. i heard it and i went blank. i was definitely not expecting that. i still haven't told him how i felt because i don't know what i feel. he wants me, badly. but i'm still thinking about it.