i can't seem to understand what's going on,

everything is moving so so fast so suddenly. i can hardly catch my breath. Kak Leya and all are leaving tomorrow. i mean, permanently leaving. i have to admit, my heart does ache just thinking about coming home from school and not having them there to hug. i'm gonna miss the days i woke up to screaming babies.

Mak cried a little. it's gotta be extra hard for her. she's terribly afraid that they'll soon forget her. but she's their grandmother and i know for a fact that they'll love her just as i love my Tok Aling.

i finally got my room. Kak Nani moved out not long ago into her own pretty house. but i know she's not far. she gave me the comfort of being able to stay over her place whenever i felt like i was too big for this house.

once Kak Leya leaves, Yana will be moving on into that room for herself. she's got everything planned out. and as bittersweet as this is. i can't help but feel slightly overjoyed. i mean, we are growing girls. and growing girls need their space.

i'll miss the times my sisters and i would just sit around the dinner table listening to each others stories. we'd be laughing at the silliest things and that would literally be the highlight of my day. i did most of the listening sometimes, just soaking in my sisters and feelings and their stories and at night i'd go to sleep willing myself to remember those memories forever.