i feel bad for leading them on but i can't help it. i'm a bitch and the faster they get it, the better for everybody. it's not that i don't wanna have feelings for them, it's just the matter that i can't. and man, does that make me feel like shit or what.

no, i do not believe i am beautiful, for many reasons. sure i'm confident, but in ways of my personality. i'm strong and hard headed and so far, i don't really see myself as beautiful but thanks.

it's already March and i went for my undang class yesterday. it was interesting but i was too bloody tired. i could barely stay awake for the first two hours of the class. probably going for the test some time fortnight.

wanna know what i've been asking for when i pray lately ? that my friends find the people they've been looking for. i have no idea why, i just feel like there's a void in their heart won't seem to disappear.

this post is turning out to be full of it. day by day i become a bigger cock talker than ever. i want my own room ! i want my sisters to move out ! i wanna be able to drive and that's about it ! and i can't wait for this life to begin.

oh yeah and i wanna runaway with my king. too hard ?