i seriously can't help but wonder why you even bother,


oh wells, these holidays seem to be going pretty well. got a little work done and still going for cheer and tuition and still bloody well babysitting. but it's been good.

got a lot of stuff lined up so far. Yana and I probably going to head over to Pavillion this Wednesday for a little shopping. most probably, just the two of us. then on Thursday, everybody seems interested in going out one whole group of us and i can't wait for that.

i gotta sleep soon but don't feel like it. i've been getting these weird crazy dreams where a guy comes to my effing rescue as if i'm some kind of damsel in bloody distress. obviously a dream. cause i have never worked that way and never will.

oh and to w from the chatbox, she meant the most "yielding thing" as the thing that can handle almost anything. which is water. if you were throw rocks into it, they'd just sink. it's a kind of metaphor for how we, as humans act and react. if someone were to be angry and aggressive. you shouldn't fight them off, you should just calmly try calming them down.

if you hit rocks together, they make a fire. something nobody wants.


anymore questions ? i'll see you guys soon.