i have so many notebooks and so many thoughts but not much time to sit down and write them out. one by one until my head completely loses feeling and thought. oh wait, that's death.

you know, it's funny, i am honestly not unhappy anymore. in fact, i feel like i'm so happy i could literally start crying at this very moment and i have no idea why. biasa lah. my heart and head have never really agreed on anything anyways.

might be going to Kak Nani's this weekend to sleepover. nak ikot ? now, that is far fetched. i miss my sisters, haven't been around home much. always either got something to do or asleep.

i sit and stare in class a lot. and today i suddenly came up with a theory.

in your life, there's always going to be someone you'll refer to as "you" in songs and everybody else after or before are just going to be the "him"s and "her"s. because in your life, you only really truly love someone with all your heart. the rest only get the leftovers. and at the end of everything, you'll hold hands with your "you" and walk towards oblivion with smiles on your faces.

i swear to god, that was extremely corny but i really mean it. and that is after all, only a theory. but i like that idea, to be with the person you were made for, forever. and i'm still counting on that.