i need a new area to spread my wings. it's just so irritating. i can't stand immature people in the morning. there's only so much i can take.

but then, where would i go ? i feel so lost sometimes. like i shouldn't be here in this particular body, in this particular life. i need a hand, a show of guidance. i hate losing friends but what i hate most is to lose my way.

i'm not as low as i used to be. getting better slowly. i heard it's good to talk about it but i have no idea how to even begin. people are being real nice when it comes to this so i really gotta thank them for everything.

i need a new maths text book or Ong is going to skewer me. somebody stole it and now it's so bloody hard for me to do my work.

i miss you, i really do. i can't believe it still sometimes but i really really miss you. i just wish you'd pop out of nowhere and hug me and tell me one of your jokes. i heard a song today that i felt appropriate for you.

i guess i'm just dreaming out loud. being heartbroken is a terribly selfish thing. but that's really the only way we get through it.