i always had this crazy thing for certain things. but it's weird. i literally have this weird kind of obsession with butterflies, roses and strawberries. i know, like i said, weird.

no idea why. roses seem to calm me in a way that no other scent can. i used to make Mak buy roses for me from all the pasar malam. and i'd arrange them and put em in a vase sampai one day, a guy i know told me that i smelt strongly of roses.

strawberries, at first, i did not like. but then, they grew on me cause Yana kept buying and not eating. so after a while, i would buy them on my own and eat em to my heart's content.

but butterflies were slightly different. they have some kind of spiritual bond to me. maybe not them to me, but me to them. every time i see one, i just stare until they fly away. i guess i'm just hoping on them to bring me some company. and i strongly believe in the idea as butterflies as messengers. not of god. but of mind and spirits.

to me, it's like they see what we can't and hear what our hearts say.