one day, i'll bring flowers to you everyday.

it's gonna be the anniversary soon and they're making a book of her. everything she ever said to anyone. anything that would make her her. everybody's given their piece but i still can't figure out mine.

it's weird because i literally can't remember anything now. it hurts to know that i won't be able to remember her much soon. Mak kept asking me how could i forget. and i honestly don't know. i just, did.

she's such an amazing woman. so why can't i remember anything.

i hate this ! this stupid thing is taking them from me ! i can barely remember anything. it's so stupid. when did this start anyways ? it's as if somebody's randomly picking my memories out of my brains. are you kidding me ?!

one thing i remember clearly is when she told me i was a bad actor after one of the scenes i did. i smiled and agreed because to me it was true. she was almost always right. so after that i fought and gave my best.

she did that for a lot of people. she made them fight to become better at what they were doing or even being a better person. she had a knack for understanding people. i don't remember much but i do remember her being a big part of what makes me, me. she did that for many and many to come.