because i like the way flowers smell, giving you a sense of hope.

spent the whole day with Ka Hoe, Rejaie and Ada. they're just so much fun. got to hang out with Awaina again which was awesome ! effing hilarious man ! dengan Ka Hoe tak tidur and Awaina's snorting. god, i love them.

Mak's grave is absolutely beautiful. you can see the impact she had on so many people. the minute we reached the grave, i noticed it. it was adorned with all kinds of beautiful plants and even her favourites, Tuber Roses. the smell of the roses filled the whole place and it really made me nostalgic. but i wasn't sad.

cause when i looked up from looking at the plants i could see Rejaie and Awaina reading the Yassin so beautifully and i could see Ka Hoe and Daddy talking like things never changed. we're still so close and it's most probably all thanks to her.

went to the High School Musical thing and it was so obvious that we shouldn't have been there. we were obviously from a different mind set and it was really hilarious watching everybody staring at us, wondering what in the hell were we doing there.

everybody's gonna be so angry at me but i can't help it. i've changed. heartache changes you. and it's not the obvious changes. it's the kind of change that gets your heart and head all messed up. so many people are telling me the same things and i'm not sure on what i want or what i should do. this is like hardcore bullshit.

so yeah, i think i might like him.