because i like the way it hurts.

i got a temporary tattoo on me arm and belly. belly seems to be more personal since i won't exactly show every motherhumper out there. but they're pretty other than the few specks of henna on my arm from Ms. Pei Wen being a little too touchy.

went to OU with her and Vee. she got her first pair of Converse and i was supposed to get my paint for my room but my dad had other things to do so he's gonna bring me the next day to some place in Menjalara. so i can finally get ready for things on Friday. memang a lot to do for me tomorrow but i'm ready for a better room, so i'm ready for anything.

i'm going absolutely crazy for Eminem. this man is brilliance. seriously i keep listening to his songs, annoying Yana. but yeah i can't get enough, especially the one with Rihanna. one of my favourites right now.

so yeah, i'm still pretty darn confused but i listened and i think i have a way out of this thing. i would really just love for this to be over with. so yeah, i can't wait. i'll let you guys know when i find out what i need to find out but i think there's more to this than i see on the surface.

i was really hurt a few months ago and i'm not sure whether it's time for me to officially get over it just yet. because i know this is gonna keep eating me from the inside if i don't properly do this but so many to rush me. so many to please.

my fingers hurt. my wrists throb. so much blood in these veins. so many things to think about and yet so little to calm me down. poke a hole in me and let it all leak out because i'm still only 17. these kind of problems are supposed to come a lot later than where i am now. but i guess that's my privilege and no one else's.

so yeah, i miss you.