my birthday's his Friday. and it's been a really long time since i've been this excited about it. at first i thought i'd just stay at home and spend the day normally but then, this head came up with a brilliant plan and now it's on and i can't wait.

everybody's, well not everybody is gonna come by my house and we'll all paint my room since it's so white and boring then from there we'll put all kinds of stuff on the wall and after most of it is done, we'll go out for dancing and a celebration. which is the part i really can't wait for.

i keep making Mum worried. she keeps asking about how i am and telling me how i should tell someone my problems. but how do you explain to someone that you don't have problems, just a lot of feelings. Mum keeps giving me these big hugs and long kisses on the forehead. they feel real good but i feel bad for making her feel so worried.

i just honestly can't wait to break free from this skin and really have some fun this Friday. i don't care where i just know i really can't wait to have some serious fun with my lovelies.

you know, maybe it's just me but i keep letting my heart talk and never pay attention to my head. and right now my heart is screaming telling me to do all kinds of things when i'm quite sure my head knows exactly what to do. but i gotta give it some time and they'll both simmer to an agreement.