because this is painful, you're painful.

i'm gonna leave for school soon, just venting before i do. since i have to wait for Little Miss Take Her Time, Yana anyways. it's currently 7 and it's still considered early since school is only 10 minutes away but then again, there's always the unnecessary traffic at Yana's school.

so yeahh, my days have been pretty rough so far. my sleeping pattern is all over the place and i still have no idea why. my brain is on friz from all the studying my parents think i'm not doing. and my heart's got a battle of it's own trying to choose wrong from right.

lately i've been feeling pretty down with all the negative comments about me and my life and my studies. so many people telling me what to do and what not to do. my mind is just buzzing from all the things i gotta think about and they don't seem to be going away. i don't know, maybe it's just me but i'm definitely gonna start doing something about this tonight.

i've always been an independent person. no idea how i got that way or maybe i was just born like that. i mean, looking at my sisters, you realise the differences between us, especially me. i've always been different and i don't know, eccentric.

i don't like a lot of things and copycats being the one of the main one. i mean, if you're gonna look like me, you can at least try not to pretend and you don't have to be so defiant about it cause well, it is pretty darn obvious. fake girls are like fake diamonds, you're real pretty and shiny from far, but get closer and we'll see all the cracks.

i'm mean when i wanna be so don't annoy me. try originality, it really does work sometimes you know. and i wasn't talking about my originality. so yeah, kisses loser.