because i've made up my mind, and you're officially done.

maybe cause i'm tired of all the bullshit you gave me and all the lies you fed me. maybe in the future we'll work out but not right now. i still need to calm down. if you'd kindly let me. i can't do this for you anymore. so many things, i've done only for you but not anymore. now i'm older, so now, i gotta take care of myself.

it's officially Eid Mubarak today. i heard the takbir raya and i thought i was gonna cry. cause it signaled the departure of our loved ones long gone back to their resting places. and i guess, i wasn't ready to say bye just yet.

oh well, i'm off to visit them later after the Raya prayers. and it'll be something different. something new for us to deal with. this year, we had to add another to our prayer list. my granddaddy. gosh, i miss him. it's weird for me cause i never really saw him go. i had exams to deal with.

so now, we'll all reminisce and think over all our mistakes and some of us will regret but some of us will learn from it. to everybody i wish you a Selamat Hari Raya. and if i have said anything to have hurt you or offend you then i ask for your forgiveness from the tip of my hair to the tip of my toes.

i just realised i have readers from all over the world. like in the States or even in England. maybe it's just my blog, or there really are people who read my rants. so thanks guys and Assalammualaikum.