because i'm not special, so leave me be.

one thing i've always wanted to do was go to an open land and run freely. then i'd lie down and stare up at the sky and finally stop thinking. but i can't do that. it'll freak too many people i care for out. well, at least for now, i won't.

truth be told, i don't like pretentious bullshit. and i seem to have a pretty good eye for it. all the little girls prancing around pretending all kinds of things and talking like they've got the biggest brass balls ever. i see them all over the place now. and they just love the attention. i mean, i'd give it to you if you'd just ask. now i can't stand the very sight of you.

i don't seem to mind anything anymore. i've been single for longer than i thought i would be but i like it. i don't have to bother with anybody else's feelings. i'm just gonna stick to my friends and family for now. so much simpler, no ?

sometimes i feel like someone's burning something in my room and has locked all the doors and closed all the windows. and i can't do anything but suffocate with my thoughts and worries. i know i think too much. that's what they all say.

i better be off, have to be awake in half an hour. hold on tight, freaks.