we're all going through something we won't get over any time soon.

it's weird for me. calling it a new year when everything still feels the same. the very same heartache i started last year with. won't this ever be over with ? i'm tired of always hoping you'll come and pick me out of this hole you put yourself in.

i started this year with a new found love for my very close friends though. somehow, the New Years celebration at Vee's finally opened my eyes to who my true friends really were and how i need to get rid of all the ones who weren't. i don't want to feel betrayed like how i always used to. but who can help that ?

the twins moved out yesterday and it hasn't helped my mood. i miss their voices in the morning and the way they smelt when i would teman them sleep. i miss how Aza would always run to me after i had a long day and how Asha would force a kiss on me when i really needed it. i also really miss my big sister. working has taken up a lot of my time and i couldn't appreciate them to the fullest.

i wonder what goes on in your head when you look at me cause it sure ain't love anymore. you're so rude and mean, it can get a little annoying sometimes. i made the decision that this would be the very last of us or i'd get run over by Pei Wen's car.

though my heart screams your name, i know i shouldn't do that to myself and to you anymore. so maybe we'll finally finish this. with college starting soon for the both of us. maybe we'll find somebody better, somebody worth it. i miss you, and you'll always be the one but you must understand, you broke me.