Day Eight


Eight Fears

i have this extremely strong fear of not being able to live my life the way i want to. ever since i was younger, i hated it when somebody told me how my life should and would be. i'm scared that in the future i'll just be another robot in this consumer driven galaxy and i scare myself with this thought everyday.

i'm afraid my family might just fall apart over the dumbest things.

when i was younger, i found out i was deadly allergic to bees and ever since then i've had a haunting fear of them. i'd go all cold and stiff when i see one. i never know whether to run or to just stay still. i actually cried once cause one got real close to my body.

i have this weird fear of loud unnecessary noises. nobody knows about this because i somewhat got over it but sometimes it does come back to haunt me.

this would be considered cliche but i am scared of the thought of ever losing my loved ones. i can't even imagine days without them ever coming back and sometimes i even selfishly ask to be taken first so i won't suffer without them.

i get scared, when it comes to relationships, to truly let myself be vulnerable.

i'm afraid i'll never live up to my dreams like how i've always imagined. i'm scared that everything i do in life will be so unimportant, nobody will remember who i was. i just don't wanna fail when it comes to my own life.

i fear i won't ever find somebody who could handle me and my feelings.