I guess I don't seem like much.

I realised how much things have changed lately and I don't really like it. Change is good, they say but I just don't see it. It makes me uncomfortable and weird inside. It feels so weird, knowing I might be losing so much in so little time. It's like those times when you were a kid and all you wanted to do was grow up but now, all I wanna do is crawl into a hole and never forget.

It's weird. I wait the whole day for a call, but it never comes. They say something one day, but say another the very next and all I can do is just sit there and wonder, did I do something wrong ? I feel us drifting apart and I can't stand the thought. I can't stand the idea that maybe someday, we'd all just be strangers. Only saying hi when we bump into each other and never think about each other after that.

Maybe we are growing up but I didn't think it was necessary for all of us to grow apart. You don't even call and by the time I do, you're already somewhere else. Maybe I don't try as hard as the rest but it seems like neither do you.

You blame me for the tiniest things and I just sit back and listen. All your reasons sound so used up. I guess you could never go wrong. What am I saying ? You could never go wrong. I just wish I didn't either. I just miss everything we had. The three of us. The eight of us. That special bond that kept us so close together. Seems like it's just fading away now.

Sometimes you wished someone would do anything for you because that's what you would do for them. But i guess being second choice is the best I've got right now and I won't complain. I'm too tired anyways.